Step out of the dark...

Here I am, so all alone.
I'm sitting here,
on this broken down throne.

Waiting..
just waiting...
for the day..
When my worries will wash away,
When these wounds will finally heal,
When my scares will disappear.
But for now...
I'm waiting here...

It's not so hard.
Just waiting here,
In this cold dark place I'm in..
The shadows surround me,
for each and every sin.

I hate it here but it's not so bad.
I can't believe this thought in my head,
To go outside away from my safe bed.

It's bright out there, or so I've heard.
But I like the dark,
I think it's what I've preferred.

So for now...
I'm waiting,
for the day...
When Courage will walk my way,
When Hope will bloom in me,
When I can tread without worry or misery.

I guess we'll see...
If that day will come,
If I'll  be strong enough to stand.
To not be afraid.
To not run away,
and maybe,
just maybe,
one day.
I'll step out of the dark

Step out of this place.
That I've hidden in for so long,
I want to try.
But then again maybe I'm wrong.

Maybe it's better for me in here.
In this dimly lit place,
where I hold everything so dear.

So for now,
I'm waiting here.
Waiting for strength to come from inside,
Waiting for me to make up my mind,
Waiting for my fear to subside,
Waiting for me to take a stand.
To go out alone and find who I am

Because I know,
that I'll have to go.
Maybe not now,  maybe not today,
but that doesn't stop my dismay.

So for now I'm waiting here.
On this filthy throne,
all by myself all alone.
In this dark cold place I call home...